xprEssIOns...!!!

Riding down the road, s the rain drops fell on my face, on a cloudy evenin of weekend, i was sittin behind my roomate on his pulsar. The evenin had smthin special in it...yeah the first rain of the season! how special it felt after a long burnin summer of pune! n as i was ridin down the barren NDa road, which had only a few couples sittin by the roadside, either havin bhuttas or sittin hand in hand! i felt all alone. a gust of emotions passed thru my heart. the feeling of missin my frenz...i tried hard to stop feelin the feelin, i tried convincing myself dat how long it had been...one long yr passed widout u all! n suddenly y m i missin u in this rainy season? i don remmber s such dat v'd hav spent many such moments together in rain...xept a few lik goin yashwant sagar or celebratin smone's b'day. but yeah, the feelin remained...n increased...i can also remmber the muvies went wid sonal in the damn rainy season...the long drives in car to mandav, or the highways. the long drives wid...no need to mention whom!! n in this one yr m all alone...or rather all of us al alone!

ahh!!y do i feel so? i know v have responsibilities...v chose this path...v know this is bound to happen n v'r all acceptin it n njoin it...but the y do i feel so...i shud'nt feel so...it shud nt come in my mind. y do i feel nostalgic? y is it dat wenever i spend sm happy moment here i feel a void around me...lik absence of someone...or dat my smiles r fake...or dat my dance misses sm steps?...y m i feelin nostalgic? shud i feel so? i dunno...but there's somethin dat i rilly m missin...i cant control...but this is a fact dat i xperience daily. i can c the colors...the green of the trees dat has arose after the rain, the gray in the sky wid a orange lining of the peeping sun..n wat not...but i find some color missin!!! wts dat? ...y's dat? y's it happening to me? does it happen to me only? or dat other r too strong to hide it in their hearts? or dat m too weak to xpose it? watever it is...but i cant stop this feeling...wenever i sip a coffee in ccd..or a tea on the roadside...or a pattis on the nearest bakery...it jus lacks the taste!! y does the same coffee in ccd seems to be bland?!!! i don undrstnd y?? n i don undrstnd y do i feel so? is it dat even smone else feels it? or jus i'm actin s an emotional FOOL?...

n suddenly i feel my roomate screamin @ me n v c a couple busy in themselves even s v watch em lasciviously!! i tried to divert myself s i saw a pair of peacocks indulged n njoin the rain! ahh, wat a scene...come lets njoy it...these emotions r jus a passin by phase...but i tend to savour em s much s other feelings!!